My Older Sister Loves Me.

There's only one thing on my mind right now. My visit home. I've missed family. A lot. Probably more than I ever have. I say that monthly now, but the ache hurts more and more. There's something about that tie. That bond. The familiar. The closeness. The fact that you don't have to explain yourself. The fact that they just know you. And you just know them. There's no trying to figure out. There's no guessing when you're too scared to ask. There's just being. There's a freedom there I don't feel I have here just yet. I've missed my Dad, I've missed my quadruplet sisters, and I've missed having my older sister around-not that she is any different or apart from the other sisters. But my older sister is naturally like a wing over me. I miss her especially these last couple weeks. I'm not sure why. Maybe because Mother's day just passed, and even today would have been my mom's birthday, so I'm needing someone to celebrate. Wow, I just realized that as I'm typing. That's probably why I have a gut desire to have that mothering so much lately. That guidance. That protectance. I've been remembering times when I used to crawl up into my mom's recliner and just sit with her all night until I fell asleep. Nothing big, but so special. Nothing beats Jesus' wing of shadowing, but man, sometimes its just so good to have that in the flesh. To crawl under that wing when everything shakes. When everything gets scary. When you hurt. When you're tired. Or even just to laugh. Otherwise there's a feeling of being completely lost. Without that older sis. I'm so excited to see mine. The day is so close. To talk. To cry. To laugh. To do crafts. To stay up so late walking around town, watching movies, and then sitting on the bed talking about who knows what while eating way too much junk food and then getting unexplainably goofy and giggly. And then waking up early and sitting with each other in silence because we're so tired but so at peace. To sit under a tree with art supplies and a guitar and "waste" all afternoon. To sip sweet tea...lots. To have someone to share my stuff with and know it will be appreciated and enjoyed the same way I value what I'm giving. To adventure through explorations. To walk around parks. To sing. To play dress up. To go coffee shoppin'.  To go to a concert. To go walking downtown. To go puddle jumping when its raining. To watch the beautiful storm clouds role in. To watch the sunset. To go shopping. To go simple walmart trippin. To cook. But most of all, to love and be loved by my sisters and my Dad. With thanksgiving. We've all never really been thankful. Until now. Cheesy, but true. I'm in need. There is a big hole that needs filling up!!!! 20 days!!!!!! I'm SOOOO excited. 

Well, that was a rant that I didn't mean to write, but the reason I'm writing is to share what my older sister just surprised me with on the internet. Check out what she's up to. So sweet and adorable! :o)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/erinsunday/sets/72157618420358577/