My Own Frustrated Dream And Hope Tonight.

I want to be in a time zone that has a sunset scheduled at this very moment. I want to take all memories, aches, and questions that are gravitated inside of me to the shoreline of a horizon and let them explode into millions of pieces to be thrown one by one into the open sea stationed under this daily radiating phenomenon given by God. I'd watch them disappear as they were swallowed into the deep mysteries, that lie way too far down for man to discover, under the blanket of reflection that rests on the waves. The waves that exist to move in unison with my hand gesturing goodbye as the echoes support my mouth's yelling of freedom. Then, without hesitation, let my remaining frame and spirit be released, by the loss of these weights, into the vast expanse of the golden gleams from a place of magnificent happenings and portraits that my eye's timeline does not possess just yet. Somewhere along the adventurous journey of following lightwaves and molecules and twirling the sky's holdings in my fingers I think I'd find a real, believing love. And, I'd swim in the satisfaction that's supposed to reflect down and cover this earth in the shadow of Heaven. What would it be like to make friends with the beautiful creations that live in the glorious inner workings of the atmosphere. I think I could float away and stay lost for eternity with the Man, called Wisdom, and all that is of Him, who had me in mind when making all of this for my mind to wander on and wonder about while my feet are stuck to the cement men laid for their own, somehow considered progressing, dream. Then, only then, I think I'd find the unpolluted, beautiful truth I need and have been looking for in place of the rehearsed, empty answers anyone on this earth has been taught to give, whether by passed down "knowledge" or their own life's discovered and growing theology. And then I'd have some sort of understanding on who I really am and what I am doing here. For all of this is His nature. And His nature defines who He is, and therefore who I am. 

Proverbs 8

I wish I could hear wisdom's calling more clearly. I'd love to hear what its shouting right now over my life.