Hey Ya!!

Um, I think I'm really bad at blogging all of a sudden. Oops.

Things have been kind of crazy lately. There has been a lot of stuff going on.

I woke up at 3am the other day to leave with some friends at 4am to go to a grand opening of a chick-fil-a. You couldn't start lining up until 6am (24 hours in advance). If you were one of the first 100 customers there they would give you 52 free number 1 coupons. We made it there in time for about 150-200 people there to be entered into a raffle (that's how many people were there at 6am). We had 6 out of 9 of our people get in, so we spent the 24 hours there and ended up splitting all of the coupons and going home with 35 free meals each. We went for the free food, but ended up leaving with so much more. Our group was so diverse, no one really hangs out all the time together so we didn't know what to expect, but we all had so much fun and lots of bonding time. We worshiped, sang the scriptures, prayed, and talked about the bible and what the Lord is doing in each of our lives the whole time. And people kept flocking to our tent area. We got to pray and prophecy over one kid, and he kept bringing other people he met in the parking lot there. We even met a kid from Jerusalem and learned a lot. Altogether the whole one day felt like a week long event and I actually kind of miss it, as well as everyone else who went. The Lord really met us there by His spirit. We are all going to another one in October again, and I can say in confidence I think its more so for the experience again, rather than the free food (although it is a major plus!) Thank you Lord.

We also currently have a conference going on this weekend called the Holy Revolution conference. I'm actually on lunch break right now for it and will be back in about an hour. We have speakers Corey Russell, Dale Hill, Kirk Bennett, and worship leader/speaker Jake Hamilton. Maaaaaan, this conference is going great! I don't really have words for it yet. All I know is the Lord's just really hitting my heart and many others. I am excited for the rest of it! I suggest you get online and order the teachings because I don't think I'll be able to speak what these voices and messengers are speaking right now. It is powerful and straight from the Lord.

Alright, better go. Hope all is well and you are encountering the Lord in fresh ways. Keep the faith...."I don't want to survive, I want to LIVE"-Jake Hamilton quoting Wally.

To Call Out

Its 1:06am and all I can do right now is sit on my bed and wish I could let the Spirit within me groan in song to let all of the frustrations from the day, and thankfulness for the Lord's goodness and unchanging, unceasing lovingkindness come out. Its the only way I can ever really release the cry.

Its times like these I miss having my own place. To sing and play guitar until the wee hours of the morning and let all of what's inside come out. Oh to call out to my Father, and Beloved, until I couldn't anymore, exactly when I need to do so, in the times I used to sing about boys and relationships full of aches.

He is so much more worthy of my song.

I Want To Lose All That I Am.

All I want to do is lose all that I am to be in the presence of the Lord all the time.

I am feeling so weak lately.

I can not do anything without Him.

It is only by Him that I am anything, the little anything that I am.

I can do nothing apart from Him.

I am so weak.

I am a mess.

And, I miss Him when I don't hear Him, when I don't feel Him near.

Like, it really drives me crazy.

I just want to be right before Him.

I have to remember that if I don't feel Him, see Him, or hear Him that its not always because I might have done something wrong.

I wish I could be lost in Him.

To be so lost I couldn't possibly ever find my way out.

And I want to see the world get lost with me.

And not for my sake.

Its not about me.

But because He wants it.

Because He deserves it.

Its about love.

Its all about Him.

I just want to be right before Him, in Him.

I want to be ready for when the storms come.

I want to be strong in Him.

Oh, I don't want to waver!

I want to pray and see the answer.

I want to see His power come by the proclamation of His name.

With just one word His power to strike down like in the beginning of creation.

I want to see a people crying out for Him.

I want to see my family and friends and the people I am meeting not hurting anymore.

I want to see them with understanding.

I want understanding.

I want us all to just let go.

I want us to really know Him.

I want us all to really walk with Him.

A multitude set apart for Him.

Ever praising Him with joy.

I want to love, so that I may love Him rightly.

All of the time.

I wish I could love the way I want to love.

I wish I could love the way I need to love.

Abandoned in a way that He is blessed in everything, in all of me.

Its all I can give Him.

I just want to be obedient.

I want to show Him His worthiness in my life.

The Lord is GREAT and WORTHY OF PRAISE.

He's worthy of abandonment for praise.

Joyful And Restful First Week.

Since I can't sleep I figured I would write a quick update.

Things are going pretty well here. The new building is great. The Lord is definitely meeting us there with joy and rest.

He's been teaching me a lot about how rest and grace are available all of the time, even in the wilderness, just because He chose us to receive. Because we are in the wilderness, or some maybe not in the wilderness, we aren't taken away from the opportunity to rest. We can rest. We can enter in. Its available because of the grace we have. We are always able to enter into it, we just have to believe and do so. It talks all about it throughout the Bible, but the main verses I can't get away from, as far as this subject goes, are Romans 9:30-32a. It says, "What then shall we say? That the Gentiles, who did not pursue righteousness, have obtained it, a righteousness that is by faith; but Israel, who pursued a law of righteousness, has not attained it. Why not? Because they pursued it not by faith but as if it were by works..." I mean, just reading that should put us, who have been grafted in at the mercy of the Lord, into thanksgiving.

Righteousness is being right with God. Faith is a gift. He gives us faith to believe we are right before Him, of course by the name of Jesus Christ and through Him only, and saved by grace. So if we believe, we believe we are forgiven and loved by the Father, and should have a confidence then in drawing near to the throne because He understands we are sinners, He knows we are going to mess up already, but at the same time He's not here to count our mistakes or expect us to fall, or to hurt us, but to love us and be with us for eternity. He is for us and able to help. (Hebrews 4)

Its just so great. Hard to actually take into play, not that we have to do anything, but still so good.

Besides all that, finances are tight, and I'm feeling quite the crunch. I am selling paintings for funding. Check them out on my direct link under "pictures" to the right of this entry. If you have questions or are interested in any of them, or having something done specifically for you, or just want to fund me, email me at kimsunday@zhop.org.